BipolarLawyerCook is one of my favorite bloggers. Even though we would appear to not have not much in common on the surface (different ages, geographical opposition, different careers; this list goes on), her writing often speaks to my heart.
One thing we do have in common is growing up in a dysfunctional family. When I hear people say their family "puts the fun in dysfunctional," I always respond with, "Really? My family put the dysfunction in dysfunctional."
BLC's post at RealMental the other day, about control issues, has really got me thinking. To borrow the phrasing from Tootsie Farklepants, I
might may absolutely have been accused of being "Controlly McController" a time or two. I had no idea this was a characteristic of adult children of alcoholics. In fact, I've been so pleased with my own strong mental health in the face of pretty much every member of my biological family suffering from serious mental illnesses (schizophrenia, borderline personality disorder, depression, myriad addictions), that I've never really contemplated the ways in which my environment formed me.
I wonder what it means when half the list of characteristics totally doesn't apply to you at all, but some of them really describe you. Having difficulty having fun. I can totally have fun--just as soon as all the work is done. Extreme responsibility or irresponsibility. I believe we've covered this territory. Overreacting to things over which they have no control. Um, no. I pretty much have it arranged that I'm always in control (hence the Controlly McControllerness that is me).
Since I so don't have the time or money for therapy, I'll just have to keep reading blogs--maybe I'll get some more flashes of insight from my newfound
addiction hobby. I'm not sure what I plan on doing with this insightful knowledge--it's pretty doubtful I'll be giving up my control issues anytime soon--except maybe for recognizing that the fact I have control issues is . . . out of my control!